Social Media Detox

This is not an announcement; even if it is, nobody will care that I disappear from social media lol.

I actually adapted this idea from Kalyn Nicholson (my favourite youtuber), not sure if I've heard it from her podcasts or was it from one of her videos. But anyway, I intend to do this for at least a week, starting tomorrow probably till Sunday. Reason being that I've realised that every time I've updated an Instagram story or updated a new post, I'll constantly have the tendency to check through every view and every likes I have. And I wasn't kidding about it, like almost every 10 or 20 mins I'll check my Instagram and see how many views I have, who viewed my story or who liked my post, how many likes do I have right now, is it at least 100 yet. It's like all these views and likes indirectly validate me as a person, or that the more views I have or the more likes I have made me more likeable (pun intended) /presentable/liked by guys. No, it does not work that way and although I know it but it still doesn't stop me from constantly checking it. Not only it doesn't stop me from constantly checking it, but it also indirectly encourages me to post more stories. It's like I've been compelled to post Instagram stories almost everyday, reporting every single shit that I've done on my social media as if like people actually gives a fuck about it. For instance, drinking alone at home - take a sexy boomerang and post it, reading a new book - take a (hopefully aesthetic) picture and post it, read a quote/post that I thought was meaningful/deep af - screenshot and post it, receive tiny shit from people - take a picture and post it, chilling at a cafe alone - take a picture and post it. I honestly have no idea why the hell do I felt so compelled to do all these that recently when I finally realised it, I really want to put a stop and make myself feel less shitty and stop being dumb to share every single thing on my social media.

Now that I realised it's actually getting more toxic than I intend for a harmless social media account to be, I should really conduct a detox from it. Just stop for a few days or a week, it's no big deal. Not like I make a living out of my social media or whatsoever, so it really isn't an issue and shouldn't be an issue to not use social media for a week. Just take it as a break and read more, shift all those time spend on social media scrolling through likes and views and watching other people's stories and develop this unhealthy feeling of envy that you were like them or have a partner like them -- shift all those attention to read more, and hopefully by the end of this weekend I'll feel less shitty trying to validate myself through my social media presences. Isn't the main purpose of social media is to share stuff online with others minus the feeling shitty and trying to validate your entire existence by likes and views?

This is getting bad, and I don't want to continue to feel like this. It definitely isn't a pretty picture. Thus, I'm really hoping that I'll feel much better after this detox. And I have two new books (hopefully) arriving this week!

So, I'm gonna be a geek and read away during my free time after work.