Grown up.

Remember how when we were young and foolish, doing everything out of pure rash decisions. Yeah, I kinda missed that. Kinda hate how I'll actually be logical and sit down, analyzing pros and cons, yes and no of everything. Well, except when it comes to shopping other than that yeah.

I missed being young and foolish, wild and rash. But at the same time, I also appreciate that I've grown up to become who I am today. Maybe I have not grown up much in others eyes, but to me, I felt like I've aged well. Perhaps like a fine wine? HAHAHAHA okay, that was too much.

I like how these few years whenever I met up with long lost friends, or just friends that I've reconciled recently and they told me that I'm different then who I used to be. And I actually liked that. Although I do miss being young and wild, but I also appreciate being wiser and logical. I like how whenever we talked, my friends used references like 'the old you' and 'the you now'. Like, hey thanks for noticing that I've grown up and am someone different than I used to be. Well, even at one point when I was so used to living alone and enjoyed my solidarity, mom said that she felt I wasn't her daughter anymore. Reason being that I've develop a different preferences to my lifestyle, food choice. A whole ass different vibe and person, if I may put it bluntly that way. She literally bawled and said, I'm not who I used to me. And all I can say is, I've grown up. I've learnt to clean up my own shit, learnt to plan ahead, learnt to know what I want at the moment. My solidarity experiences changed me as a person. I might still be naive at times, but I'm not longer dumb and naive. Or maybe I should say, I choose to be oblivious to things around me that I no longer give a shit about as rather than being naive and thinking that everything will work out just fine.

I guess, I could say that, I'm no longer the little girl I used to be.

Shit happened, shit will continue to happen. Grow the f*ck up.